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Eye of the Storm

- elaine - Thursday, April 14th, 2005 : goo

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I'm getting used to disappearing, lately. Die before you die, the Sufis have it. See, the great thing about getting this ill is you get to experience these catch phrases at first hand. You have to be here now if you havn't got a plannable future - sitting down I would have no idea if I would be getting up again.

I had been living in this flat near Tower Bridge, right on the edge of the City (the financial district) for 12 years. Odd place, not very residential or even properly towny. The city boys work hard, drink, then go home, leaving their patch to the urban tumbleweed of silent changing traffic lights at nights and weekends. Pubs, for example, might close at 9. Also, the near East End, after many years of different waves of immigrants, has a current dominant minority of Muslim Bangladeshis, they don't drink, so not so much of a call for the big old gin palaces of yester year for the drowning of miseries. This suits me, I like a bit of quiet.

Further north, what has become a seriously thriving arty enclave, starting in Hoxton and bleeding outward over the years, now is really maxing out, to the point where the little shops which surrounded the market are all closing down because they can't afford the rent. I could go on at lenght - but this is all well rehearsed elsewhere.
Anyway, I had a life, you know, the usual things, a body, a job, friends, choices, things I did. Then last November my back went, and then I got the big tiredness - burnout, it has been called. I spent a time lying down, and at some point made some photos and a little film too, compelling, as you may imagine.

Last May I moved house. Not fantastic timing to be doing moving, but essential for recovery. Still local, still East End, but a different area with some trees, bit more residential, and a park and a canal. I hijack friends' dog walks and go to yoga for a quid. There are Buddhists who chant for us round here, which is great, because, you know I can't be bothered, but I am always grateful.

I am still ill, but hazarding a peek over the parapet. My friend Lottie was readind the first version of this and she said 'you are healing yourself with the city' and I am.

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Jamie: 14th Apr 2005 - 20:46 GMT

What a great read. I love how you describe your neighbourhood in such vivid detail. I hope you'll write more, and get well soon x

vietnamese baby: 16th Apr 2005 - 15:12 GMT

Re: eye of the storm
She look scandinavia. But she lie on back alltime. She count feathers on ceiling or wicker Ikea chair. That what go on in head. Also old lace an mirrors. That what get there. And same food this day and that day, a piece of fish and next day and on and on and then sudden couscous! sudden for no reason and next and on. She have gilbert and she have george. She have bacon on her fridge and bacon in her wall and that man holds his bacon and proudly have it! All for her on back. For when on day she stand up. See?

sine: yes! please heal quickly.

elaine: 17th Apr 2005 - 06:49 GMT

thank you for your good wishes, it means a lot to me. sometimes i improve, then there is dreadful skiddy backwardness, which comes as a shock, no matter how often it happens. starting to post stuff here has been a lifeline

Marc: 17th Apr 2005 - 07:10 GMT

Re: eye of the storm

"well don't heal tooo quick if it keeps you writing so well..."
-some jerk

seriously, this piece is my favorite of yours (so far)- when i first read it i was floored! hope you get out more with your camera- the canal gasworks made me miss london so much. brick lane was the first indian food i ever enjoyed- even the chintzy 24 hour place (hollywood's?) was amazing.. something about 150 years of colonialism just sparkles on the tastebuds-- or maybe it was that poisonous tikka masala chemical they just recently recalled..

Marc: 17th Apr 2005 - 09:17 GMT

"After Lights out for The Territory, a man sent me an X ray of his brain tumour. He'd superimposed it over a map of London and was trying to heal himself by walking out its routes through the city." --iain sinclair

elaine: 17th Apr 2005 - 09:39 GMT

wow! ian sinclair obviously is da bomb, I clearly need this!

you will be glad to know my improvements are small, incrimentally small and punctuated by backdraughts so violent you can stand up and not break the top of the water you are drowning so hard, so I will not be healing too very quickly. Meanwhile thankyou for the felicitations...
I finally stopped eating curry in brick lane when I went to one place and was convinced the meal I had been brought had been salvaged from another restaurant's bins... I have a strong stomach and will usually eat anything once, but did actually walk out

kobe: wow thats a cool montage, elaine.

elaine: 4th May 2005 - 17:53 GMT

thanks, i spent a lot of time with the bad back thinking about doing such a thing, and then i did it, and now it is here. zoot!

Lili: 20th Jun 2005 - 06:05 GMT

I am still absorbing it, will be for sometime. Thank you.

Lili: 20th Jun 2005 - 06:09 GMT

Eye of the Storm talks to me of many things. The image speaks to me of connected fragments. It has a hallucinogenic feel to it.

Lili: Are you a writer ?

elaine: 20th Jun 2005 - 06:50 GMT

not until i wrote this. this was my first attempt at something outside of private diary, letters and academic essays. i am an artist firstly, but now attempting to write as well, in order to develop narrative skills, and to explore another means of communication

Lili: 20th Jun 2005 - 06:54 GMT

My sense from the communication that I have had with you is that you are very, very, talented. Your heart comes through.

My definition of the word "artist" is broad. I consider the writer an artist.

Lili: 20th Jun 2005 - 07:03 GMT

Looking at the opening sentences for Eye of the Storm you are conveying huge amounts of information. You are poising the readers mind wonderfully.
In two sentences you are opening the readers mind, clearly, into at least four areas while at the same time not limiting the expression.

elaine: 20th Jun 2005 - 07:13 GMT

thank you. what i meant, just, was that i initially and still define myself as a visual artist, and my first degree was fine art. my work is conceptually driven, and then the materials or form has grown out of that. recently i have been a teacher, and had let go of being an exhibiting artist to concentrate on teaching. however, my employers saw fit to work me into the ground, and having become too ill to work i am now attempting to reinvent and reorientate. the only way forward for me is to follow my bliss. i have no ability to metabolise stress, so cannot be externally driven - if someone had asked me to do 50 pages of web content by this date i would not have been able to do it, but have been enjoying following my own nose here at citynoise, and the unconditional support and gentle human contact i have experienced here. it is a matter of some pleasure to me to find that i can express myself creatively in writing, though i have not attempted fiction, and i hope i will be able to use this into the future

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